Ukrainian Gothic Portal

by Nemesis

The Rupture

The parlour's empty. Twin in mirror.
Ulterior and turbid sun.
And echo startling from the pillar
Reminds again that you are gone

You're lying… Such a weird vision -
With closed blue eyes and tranquil face…
The tears strangling… Bad decision
To put on you all God's disgrace.

The parson from his cell is coming.
The candles glow and melt away.
I can't be valor, I am crying,
I see you for the last today.

The parson came and started praying.
His words bring me embittered pain.
I'm sullen, mute, just heart is saying…
But silence… I feel you again.

I'm trembling… dim silence… cold…
Then rapture… Somnolence and dream
The flashing light of blazing bolt…
… And I'm within a soothing stream.

Unveil the truth, the sweet devine of light
…How vast it is, but there I can see you
Embraced by life and covered from incide.
…I think it's true and soon I will be with you

But it's not true, and I am falling.
I see me lying on the ground,
And people running, people calling
For me to come back safe and sound.

But life is worthless. World divine,
I'm coming back to shining kingdom.
I'll see you there, 'cos you're mine,
There we shall find our sweetest freedom…

8-9.10.01.

Pretender

I am a pretender. I hide what I feel.
I always say yes, they don't hear me refusing
It's hard to feel pain, but I must it conseal
From them not to note me confusing

I'm always amenable now to my reason
I lay myself on the black altar a life
I'm spirit for cruelty, anger and treason
Of others who find me so easy to rife

But it's not so true, it's not truthful quotation
And nemesis after them always with heel
And feel the eternity in meditation
I know that all sinners soon surely will kneel.

I'll change into shadow and stop my pretending
And damned cruel world soon will turn unto sand
And clearest souls then will make their landing
In the clearest part of the fair God's hand…

25.03.02.

My Willow

My love is gone. It passed away
In wind that's tossing lone old willow
My ashen land is gone today
With wind that's tossing lonely willow

But only harder I'll embrace
My willow and the ties are tighten
With its own strength I'll face disgrace
Although my path is not enlighten

Its love - asylum for my soul
I'll nevermind the tears in pillow
And I shall fight till Earth will roll
Till cruel wind shall toss my willow

1.09.02.

Forgotten

Forgotten feel how it's to love
Forgotten moments when was sunny
Forgotten hopes and signs above
Forgotten dreams can't buy with money

And sun forgot to rise in sky
And stars forgotten and forbidden
And nothing left, just tearless cry
Just words forgotten when were written

Enlighten thoughts that gone for trips
And sentenced breath that lost in mazes
And your name's fragrance on my lips…
Now lost and gone for better places…

17.09.02.

A Puppet Has No Dreams

Borrow me one of your dreams,
I've forgotten how it happens
When you live inside a stream,
Now just following the patterns.
When you lie at coastal sea
On the patchwork of the water,
When you sit beneath a tree,
Neverminding life gets shorter.
I'm a pawn, but you're a queen,
You're a puppeteer, I'm puppet
Hiding terrified within,
In my shelter, under carpet
In the box that's locked outside,
In the deepest, coldest oceans.
You may say I've lost my mind…
No, I'm lost for my emotions.

19.10.02.

Destiny's Tormentor (Out of Love)

Don't know what ever can I fight for
I left it far behind from me
I beckon destiny's tormentor…
It's me… but do not want to be

I want to freeze in burning furnish
Where I have forged my piece of luck
And in the highest skies to perish
Or being kept within the dark.

To nothern soutwards for ever
Or to the south for today
Unite myself or let me sever
To find myself or go astray

To hide away, get lost in recess
Discard my soul that's out of love
Or mend my heart broken to pieces
And to forget… I'm out of love

28.11.02.

Solitude

At last the sounds died away
And wistful evening strides in twilight
Allaying shadows make their way
Beneath the stars, beyond the daylight

Relented features of the street
Dispatch the agony of city
But the last candle will be lit
Though its dim lighting seems uppity

And to the darken skies I pray
To take my pain without traces
I pray my tears sweep away
To free my broken heart of laces

I think there's no escape from this
I'll stay inside my soul's dimention
Inside I'll bind with loneliness
To dream and wait for the relention

16.01.03.

Simply Nothing

Say the words I've never heard
Bless the Something in Somewhere
Ask for Nothing in the world, -
I'll disperse to find it there

Try to open opened gates
Drink the dust and eat the air
Touch the time that never fades
Till I don't return from there

Kiss the beam of rising sun
Grow dead flower to the ceiling
I have so much left undone
Ending things from the beginning

Cry for clouds blown away
Laugh for stars that lit in heaven
Catch the truth and let it pay
For the "six" before the "seven"

Praise the Lord that He exists
Damn the Devil that He's near
He's inside all human-beasts
Say, shall I return from there?

Say, shall I to you return
From mysterious Somewhere,
Where I'll nothing never learn
To the day-to-day despair?

25.01.03.

Knocking on Madness' Door

What for?! Am I condemned to be imprisoned
And days pass by like shadows in the dust
With flow of thoughts and feelings with no reason
Without response my question will be asked

And just the past's still knocking on my senses
And drag to death and laugh into my face
Just wheel of time consealing from me answeres
Will disappear in the wind with morning haze

And into chaos of my dreams my soul is taken
My spirit from nightmare's not awaken

Do still I talk to darkness in the night
Or still in nightmare dream and scream from scare?
Doomed I have been to see what I have might
Do to myself…
But DO I really care?..

28.01.03.

My Moorland

In my mooreland drag my path
Into smoky night of winter
Into stillness of the past
Unto silver of the cinder

Whence I come and where I go
I won't tell, can't be sincere
It may hurt and will do so
But I promise, I'll be near

Maybe one day I enfold
You inside of my embraces
On this day won't let you cold
In my moorland's hazy mazes

Desperately robin sings
His farewell through chilly morning
And the raven spreads his wings
Croaking twice as for the warning

Desperately robin sings
But his voice fades in my ears
Now I hear lone bell rings -
Aftertaste of bitter fears

In my mooreland drag my path
Heavy smoke at night of winter
Made my dying down hearth
Blown away with silver cinder

20.02.03.

Nażve Illusions

When every truth is an illusion
When every moment seems to lie
You stay aside in a confusion
With words without sound die

When life pass by you in a moment
When hope is fading out of sight
When every day is total torment
When your relief is only night

When every human is pretender
When everyone is wearing mask
When every sparkle after fender
Is blown away before the dusk

You ask the Lord to find solution
To get you out of this rave
But all you get is disillusion
And finding out how you're naive

27-28.02.03.

* * *

I leave my thoughts in disarray
And let them die outside my reason
To loose the trace and go astray
Can't keep inside them like in prison

But I shall keep inside my mind
My dreams. I'll keep them and I'll bind them
One to another them I'll wind
That no one never ever find them

I'd better stay in fierce cold
I'd better rush myself in fire
Than someone steal my inner world
And spit in dreams that I admire…

12.03.03.

Answers?

Through the moonlight saw deceitful shining
That was striping shadows in the nightfall sky
Neverending night the stars was dining
Those, that dared from their place to fly

It devoured them within the spaces
And it hid in darkness killing light.
What they'd left? Just disappering traces,
Painful scars of flashbades in the night

What we'll leave before we turn to nothing?
Shall we be remembered or forgotten fast?
Tell me, why the human's always fussing
To get stained with sins before he lays to dust

Why he runs for life but stunned when dying?
Why he damns the rain, the heat, the snow?
Why he blames the truth and praises lying?..
Give me answers 'cos I want to know.

13.03.03.

Ere (I Die)

Bottomless cavity of the infinity
Brand me a liar and throw into cell
I will brek through the distrustful divinity
Out of the heaven and straight to the hell

Hail me again and you'll hear no answer,
Damn me once more for my glance as reward.
Have no remorse, it was eaten by cancer
Of darken soul. So, on guard! Draw your sward!

Fight me, my concience, fulfil your prescription.
Ere I die do unthrone my own pride
Thou I command: carve on heart the inscription
Of what you might thought of me would be right

Torture me, torture! I'm far more then ever.
Tear out my eyes not to see laughing sun.
Gather again and again let me sever.
Rack me, my pain, I've deserved to be gone…

26.03.03.

Out of Rave into the Bliss

The sombre sky of gloomy day
And hood I hid in from the shiver
But solace sought's to much to pay
I can't afford a bit of fever

A bit of warmth that brings relief
A little coal to warm the mantle
A piece of cautios belief
To take the pain that I can't handle

A little dew in morning wind
To bring the freshness in the air
And voice it'll bring to give a hint
But listen to it I won't dare

Just want to hide away from this
In place where I shall find a recess
Out of this rave into the bliss
To cure my heart that you still misses

04.04.03.

To The Nightfall

Put on make up of black and white
And darkly grin for my reflection
When darkness falls, life loses might
At night the death's held in affection

Put on the mask and off to street
I scarcely see the edge of being
Out from my place where light is lit
Where dirty splinters walls I'm seeing

I'm off to sombre place of grief
Where shadows fall beyond existance
Where people find their last relief
In peaceful silence, out of distance

I'll find the crypt where once I cried
Where I had died one chilly morning
To where I lurk each moonlit night
For her tonight where I'll be mourning

23.05.03.

Tonight To Die?

is it for him tonight to die,
to lie in grass, disperse to nothing?
is it for her tonight to cry
for him, on love who was trespassing?

who loved the rain and stormy sky
- she seemed to be the sunny weather
the raven - black with collar high
- the light she was, a white dove's feather

who always wanted to be free
from freedom lost and never found
who made no effort just to see
the envious set off to heund…

but it's for him tonight to die
to lie in grass, disperse to nothing
and it's for her tonight to cry
for her beloved away who's passing

24.06.03.

The Last Swallow's Song

Falling from sky where I belong
Into your arms with broken wing
Serene I've made my lastest song -
You've made my heart, so tired, sing

The dream you are, but what it for
For swallow lost his hope to live?
For me, who wanted nothing more
But spread my wings, for sky to live.

Within the palm of human-god
With teardrops dripping down on me
With dying tiny swallow's heart
I face my doom, and let it be

The dream you are, I know what for…
For you, my goddess, swallow's song
And now I'm wanting nothing more
But fly my way to where belong

25.06.03.

The Path Of The Deceased

In embers that embellish burning fire
They crown a blindman deifying bloodshed war
And falling on their knees admire
Deprived insane who thought that he's a god

Descendant of the crusified heroes
Himself is not, just formless ghastly ghost
Who fled away through the distorted mirrors
Into our world, the best one of the worst

They see him laughing and they laugh together
They see his tears - yell in mournful cries
They worship crosses made of raven's feather -
The crosses of the devil, in his lair lies

The doomed they are, don't know what they are doing
In clinch of death they're all already seized
And worm of sins their souls's already chewing
The path they chose is path of the deceased

07.07.03.

Sound Of Cello

The clouds may be black and white
The mood be blue, the sun be yellow
May fog be blocking out my sight
But I shall follow sound of cello

The blood from heart is dripping red
May sea be deep and river shallow
May tears fall when you are sad
But try to follow sound of cello

The sky may tear itself with rain
The human cause the death of sparrow
And you may feel the bitter pain -
Unite your soul with sound of cello

One day you'll think your life is vain
And path you go is turning narrow
But let with you the song remain
The song you hear is sound of cello

One day the sun may rise again
And slave one day become a pharaoh
If you are down you will regain
The will to live with sound of cello

08.07.03.